Penis Tales

As i said until 16 the only thing my penis was used for hand jobs, my hand! The discovery of the pussy, the cunt, the beaver....the what so fucking ever you wanna call the magic box, was not as pleasant as the masturbation, because i was stone drunk and scared shitless, it was...ok. I will get back to the "ok" part. For now let's talk about the scared part.
It's funny if i think about it now, but then...OMG...i was terrified. The eventual pain, or getting busted...or i don't know what fucked up reason, did not scare me, i was afraid that it whould be a failure.(, and that i am gay! hahahahah) But as it turned out, it was only my fucking head playing tricks on me. (and i am not gay...hiuuuu) I was new in the "fucking" with someone else business, and i did not knew what to do, where to kiss her, where to touch. It took me 5 minutes to find the spot, and another 10 to get in. It was dark so that could be a reason. After half an hour of "playing" fuck, we had a break, and we tried again. The second time it was better, but still shit, compared to what i do/know now. Anyway there was no orgasm that night, and we get to the "ok". I had so many expectations from sex, i don't know what the fuck was in my head, but it was wrong. there was no music after the sex, no angels came to say "god going boy!" there was...just me and her, alone, naked, scared, disoriented in a dark room. Sounds even more scary than it was. But i am happy it was like it was, and that we did it! We are still doing it, after 9 years, but now...ohh boy, now after sex....i hear the music, and i see the angel. The being alone and naked part, felling the heat of her body makes me realize that i am just one of many, that lost his virginity at 16.